Coming Home to Myself: Healing Beyond the Scale

There was a time when I thought healing would happen once I lost the weight.

A few years ago, I lost 20 pounds. I loved how I looked — the clothes fit differently, the mirror felt more forgiving, and for a moment, it felt like I had "fixed" something that had been broken for years. For a little while, it felt easier to be in my skin. I thought, this must be what healing feels like.

But inside... I didn't feel any different.

The old doubts, the disconnection from my body, the deeper wounds that no scale could touch — they were all still there, just quieter for a little while. When the excitement faded, I realized something I hadn’t expected: I didn’t actually know how to live in this new body.

I didn’t know how to nourish it without fear.

I didn’t know how to celebrate it without condition.

I didn’t know how to trust myself.

And slowly — painfully — I sabotaged myself. I slipped back into old patterns. The weight returned. And then some.

At first, I felt like I had failed — like all my hard work had been wasted. But looking back now, I realize: that breaking point wasn't the end of my healing. It was the beginning.

Since then, my journey has been about so much more than weight or appearance. It’s been about coming home to my body — meeting her exactly where she is, with compassion instead of criticism. It’s been about learning to listen — really listen — to what my body needs. About honoring her rhythms, her wisdom, and her timing.

I turned to practices that helped me build a relationship with myself:

🌿 Reiki, for energetic trust and deep inner healing.

🌿 Yoga, not as punishment, but as a ritual of remembering.

🌿 Breathwork, stillness, gluten-free nourishment, and intuitive self-care.

These aren’t just things I "do." They’re how I live now. And while I am still very much a work in progress, I’m proud of the foundation I’m standing on today.

My website, OnTwelve.com, is a reflection of this sacred path — a place for sensitive souls and seekers to find their way home, too.

I am Ladyon12 — not because I have it all figured out, but because I'm walking this journey right alongside you.

Right now, I'm working on something very close to my heart: a new offering called Coming Home — a 4-week guided experience blending Reiki, yoga, breathwork, and gentle embodiment practices. It’s designed to support you in reconnecting with your body, your energy, and your own innate wisdom — no perfection required.

It’s not ready just yet... but it’s coming soon. And I cannot wait to share it with you.

Because healing isn't about chasing an ideal. It’s about rooting deeper into yourself. It’s about remembering that your body is not something you have to fight or fix —

She is your home.

Thank you for being here. Thank you for walking this road alongside me.

You are already enough.

You are already whole.

And you are so deeply welcome here. 🕊️

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